Two years after his first appearance on the podcast, Pusha T returns to NPR‘s Microphone Check. Fresh off the release of what’s already shaping up to be his solo masterpiece, King Push sits down with hosts Ali Shaheed Muhammad and Frannie Kelly to talk about juggling music, business and family time, collaborating with Beanie Sigel, why he doesn’t like going “back and forth with Puff about rap sh*t,” how he “reverse trolled” his record label and the death of his road manager Day Day.

That ruined my whole thing. Whatever was good. Ruined it. Totally. I was going through, you know, just issues of, like anger. Just anger. It’s that stuff you deal with when you hear about the kid getting killed. The 6-year-old. The 9-year-old. No apparent reason type of situation. I’d been on the road with him. We dealt with each other in a way that like — he was my road manager because he thought bright.

You know, we on the road, man. I make a certain type of music. That brings out a certain type of element. You mix that with drugs and alcohol, that evening can turn into something different. And I watched my road manager be like — somebody being belligerent, he’d say, “You know what, boss? You got it. I’m out of here. We don’t want no problems.” So for him to end up on the wrong end of that situation, I been a little bit out of my mind.

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