amy winehouse, blake

…They just share a love for drugs.

Its not like this comes as a surprise, but I’m still shocked to hear Amy Winehouse’s estranged husband Blake Fielder-Civil come out and take the blame for addicting his wife on crack and heroin.

“…because of drugs we can’t have a normal life together. That’s why I have to let her go.”

This comes on the heels of Blake’s decision to divorce Amy “for her own sake.” Is this a case of an “it’s not you, it’s me” excuse? Or has his stint in jail and now court-mandated rehab, opened Blake’s eyes and given him clarity on he and Amy’s toxic relationship. She seemed like a boozer before their whirlwind romance but definitely his era in her life has been nothing short of a freefall.

(I wonder what Bobby would say or what Rohan would say if they were in a relationship confessional booth.)

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More quotes after the jump…

From UK’s News of the World:

In an explosive interview Blake revealed how Amy, 25:

ASKED him to let her try crack cocaine as she watched him taking it.

CUT her arms after she saw him self harm.

COLLAPSED with a seizure after an all-day drug binge.

CHEATED on him with her manager’s assistant.

“I introduced her to heroin, crack cocaine and self-harming. I feel more than guilty.”

Blake, 26, described himself as a “recreational drug user” until he started taking heroin at the age of 22.

“I was old enough to know better. Heroin and crack took hold of me and f***** me up,” he said.

“It made me not look out for the woman that I love more than anyone else in the world.”

Blake confessed: “The first time Amy took crack she asked me, ‘Can I try a bit of that’.

“Crack is the nastiest drug. It makes you paranoid, unreasonable, edgy and totally suspicious of everyone. “And you can get hooked on it straight away. But I was weak and an addict and I let Amy take some.“I didn’t stop it from happening. For that I take full responsibility. It became something we did as well as heroin.

“And then our lives fell apart.”

They hit rock bottom in the summer of 2007, when Amy almost died in front of him.

Blake said: “I was there when Amy suffered her first seizure. I still break down thinking about it. We had been taking drugs all day long — heroin and crack.

“It was heartbreaking, seeing someone you love more than yourself, someone you would die for, someone you would kill for on the floor shaking.”

When Amy came round she “went hysterical and mad” not even recognising her husband.

Blake grimaced: “I will go to my grave with that picture of Amy asking me, ‘Who are you? Who are you?’

He and Amy started to self-harm as he faced up to the prospect of going to jail for GBH and perverting the course of justice.

JANUARY 2007: Wild child leaves court at Blake's trial

JANUARY 2007: Wild child leaves court at Blake’s trial

“I knew that I was going to jail. I thought I would go away for four or five years,” said Blake, who was actually sentenced to 27 months, going free on November 5.

“I just couldn’t believe that after our wonderful marriage — the happiest day of my life — we were going to be torn apart.

“I felt inadequate. I felt unworthy of Amy. I felt that she should be with some other pop star or film star. Not be with some little chav from Camden.

“I cut my arms after we fell out over doing too much drugs and losing sight of ourselves.

“Amy got really upset about seeing me bleeding. And because she’s loyal and f****d up over our love — like Romeo and Juliet — she cut her arms too.

Blake insists he is now free from the grip of drugs.“Yes I’m clean. Yes I’m off drugs. But I don’t deserve to be clean.

“I don’t deserve to be the one in rehab. Amy does. Amy deserves to be in here, getting clean, getting ready for a fresh start in life.

“I do not deserve to be in here when someone I love is suffering. I deserve to be in the f****** gutter.”

Although he’s clean now, he fears if he gets back together with Amy he’ll soon be hooked again.

JULY 2008: Looking a state as she goes out in Camden

JULY 2008: Looking a state as she goes out in Camden

Blake adds: “There are still reasons that Amy and I don’t like to be sober and if I go back to her I am basically saying, ‘It’s all right to kill yourself Amy’.

“Even if I was strong enough to resist drugs — and I’m not — it’s a ticking timebomb.”

“I accept that there is every horrible, horrible chance that I could be tempted to take drugs again if I went back to Amy.

“I’m distraught and can’t stop crying. I can’t believe that because of drugs I’m going to lose my soulmate.

“Without crack and heroin Amy would be making beautiful music and I would be doing my video production job and we’d both be so happy. But because of drugs it’s all gone….”

He says wistfully: “My fantasy is that one day fate might bring us back together when Amy is clean. In an ideal world me and Amy would live together in a nice house with our two kids and all of this would be a distant f****** memory.

“That would be my dream.

“What people don’t realise is that Amy is an amazing wife, an amazing home-maker and a beautiful figure in the home.

“You would be surprised the domestic bliss you can have with Amy just doing the cooking and caring for you.

“But because of drugs we can’t have a normal life together. That’s why I have to let her go.”